My brain tells me plenty of bad things. Literally, comes out of nowhere, attempting to convince me of the worst shit any time it wants. That's real good except I usually come down with it when everything is going great and I look super dumb and ungrateful.
In order to make those conversations real you have to have those conversations with yourself. Before you ever have them with anyone else. Take your time and listen to the sounds in your head. Then remember others, remember their own struggles, the ones you hope can hear you out. Figure out how to tell them. Call them brain banks where you keep the worst of it to yourself and sort it out before anyone else hears of it.
I place immeasurable importance on how to say things and the way to say them. It is an art and it's hard and it's ever-changing, depending on just about everything. I can't get it right every time and all I hope for is understanding. Do your best to avoid self-sabotaging because maybe you have a good thing and not totally sure you deserve it. I'll tell you, everyone deserves it.
Now saying that, I don't have an excuse anymore. When you're used to feeling a certain way for so long and those feelings change for the better, you need to grow up and appreciate it. That old bullshit is a safe place to land but you need to make a choice and realize what you have. I understand growing accustomed to good things takes time, but from here on out, I refuse to revert to negativity as though it's the place I belong. Especially when I have no reason to.
Let me do myself that favor because it's way better up here.