It's so hard to talk about a number of experiences in some all encompassing fashion because I don't know how-- nor am I in a place to do that justice. I don't want to represent too much because I am certain there are people that can do it better. I want to talk about one thing. I want to talk about this one thing because I have never talked about it before.
It's never been more important to me to establish myself. I want to be good. I want to be respectful. I want to be deeply in love. I want to be attentive. I want to be open. I want to be understanding. I want to be successful in my chosen paths.
If I can't live like this, I see no point.
I learned eventually that all of those things you want to feel so badly also: take work, take time, take patience.
You can probably find countless articles on getting your shit together and the appropriate age to do so. I'm young and sometimes, I feel like time is running out.
Once I let myself slow down, it's clear there is no timeline, there is no procedure for these things. I've thought about how all of the most meaningful life events I have now had nothing to do with a schedule set by someone else. Over time, I came up on everything much later than it seems other people did. Things just don't happen for me in some preconceived way and I'm cool with that because I wasn't ready.
I'm telling you, I understand the overwhelming feeling of figuring out your life and figuring out what on earth makes you happy. I feel lucky because I've always known exactly what I wanted, but I know this doesn't come so easy to everybody. I think experience helps with this. You gotta live a little bit and sift through some shit to get to the good stuff. Even though I've known my passions, I continue to work my ass off in unrelated fields to achieve that end game. So I totally get it.
I understand time is always counting down, but let's make the most of it ;)