i think depression can feel inescapable, like a parasite slipped inside you, sometimes unnoticed. There are ways to conquer those low feelings for periods of time, learn to live with them. But for some people it comes with the acceptance of knowing that it'll stick around for the duration of your natural life. Once you know that, you can begin to figure out what works for you, how to make the best of it.
Holiday time is usually a happy time and the emphasis of that and the expectancy of feeling good is all around. I am thankful and grateful for so many things. Those things always get through to me no matter how withdrawn I feel. I can internalize these things and still allow myself to push them away in certain moments.
I want to acknowledge those people it isn't so easy for because I'm not sure everyone does. Where a flip of a calendar creates a standard to be happy just because it's that time again.
So I think when that times comes: try the best you can. And if you can help it, try not to be alone. It's never better to isolate yourself and if you're lucky, you'll have friends and family opening up a place for you. Because we all have a place and it's time you realize that.